Thursday, May 21, 2015

Freeman Baby #3

                                                I stand with so many questions
                                                But You know all of the answers


                                                      And whether this side of Heaven
                                                       I know that You are the Healer

                                                     
                                                       And my heart will stay steadfast
                                                         I know that You are good

                                                        And my heart will stay steadfast
                                                          I know that You are good
                                                    Comforter You are to me,
                                                    Shelter from the cold.
                                                     Constant how You carry me
                                                     Never letting go
                                                    
                                                    You are with me
                                             
                                                 Your voice holds me together
                                                 When I feel like I’m falling apart
                                           
                                            I place my world in Your hands
                                            You come and steady my heart                                         
 
                                           I feel you in the stillness
                                            I know that You are good

                                           I feel you in the stillness
                                           I know that You are good                                                  

                                                    My heart will stay steadfast
                                                    I know that You are good


                                                     
                                                       I feel You in the stillness
                                                      I know that You are good  
                                                    Emmanuel God with us
                                                    Emmanuel God with us


        
                                  "For you formed in inward parts;
                                  You covered me in my mother's womb.
                                   I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made,
                                  Marvelous are Your works,
                                 And that my soul knows very well."  Psalm 139:13, 14




 
We will never meet our 3rd son or daughter here on Earth.  But, because of God's love and God's plan for us, we will meet them in Heaven one day.  The past 6 months have refined our family and faith in many ways.  We have learned to truly take each day as the gift that it is.  We have learned to cling to  our faith in a brand new way, and trust that things happen that are part of God's perfect plan, even when we don't understand.  We have truly tasted the goodness of the Lord and the love that the body of Christ has for hurting hearts.  We know a deeper love for one another, and for these two precious children that we have here with us. We give God all of the glory, honor, and praise for carrying us through the hardest and saddest days of our lives.  He is a good God!  

"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him."
Psalm 34:8

"For the Lord your God is living among you.
                                                            He is a mighty savior.
                                              He will take delight in you with gladness.
                                              With his love, he will calm all your fears.
                                               He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”
 Zephaniah 3:17 




The lyrics to the song above are to "Nearness" by Bethel Music.  I listened to that song hundreds of times while driving around town with a Starbucks coffee cup in my hand.  Thank you to someone I love very much for inspiring me and giving me courage to write about this, so that I can blog about my precious family again.  I have learned I will never have "closure" to this, which is what I once thought.  It's part of our story now. Our story that is part of His good and perfect plan.